I’m sure many of you can relate, you’re young, fall in love, get married and start thinking about what it will look like to become a mom. I did. We were married at 21, and after a year of marriage decided we would start trying for our family, surely it would go as planned, and we could be done having our kids by the time we were 30. We started trying in the summer, so we would have a spring baby, because spring is the time of new beginnings, new life.
Not for 5 years.
We couldn’t get pregnant. For no reason at all. We were in the ambiguous category of “unexplained infertility”. Awesome. I’m an information person, if there is information, details, diagnosis, I can study it, I can find ways to maybe make things better, or accept what can’t change. But “unexplained”, or “there’s no reason this isn’t happening” was heart breaking. To all standards, we should be able to have children, but it wasn’t happening.
We prayed, we hoped, we cried. I talked to so many encouraging people, those who had children, those who struggled with infertility, those were were never able to have children (and some who chose not to). My world became completed consumed with this. It was exhausting. It took tolls on my family, friends, community, church, it took the biggest toll on me.
On our last cycle of IUI (intrauterine insemination (commonly referred to as the turkey baster method)), I became pregnant. It was the shock of a life time let me tell you. This positive test, would be just the beginning of my journey into mommy-hood, and staring to learn who this new person, I would be become.
At 7 weeks, we had the next surprise, that we were expected not one, but two sweet babies! SHOCK! But this was going to be amazing.
I had an incredibly healthy pregnancy, no complications, and at 36wks3days, my water broke, and the next day we welcomed our little man cub, and little lady cub into the world. In December…. not in the spring. But that was exactly how it was suppose to be.
The last 10 months have been a whirlwind of change and excitement and tears and long days. Smiles and laughter and everything in between. I have learned a lot, on being a parent, on being a completely different parent than what I expected. I’ve learned a lot of my P-Daddy, and have fallen even more in love with him. And I’m even more grateful for our family and friends, who have loved on us in more ways than I can count.
I’m excited to share all the things I have found a long the way that have helped make my life easier, and give you a glimpse into my world with twins. Writing again gives me joy, to do something for me, so stay tuned as I start to figure out where this will all go… until next timePin It